Owh lamanya tak update pasal life. Pasal perasaan. Pasal harapan. Ececeh.
Sepanjang setahun ni la perkembangan diri owner blog ni
@ i'm a wife - yang masih tak tau memasak. Still. Trying. A for effort.
@ dapat tau pregnant pada ogos 2014.
@baby gurl 2.72 kg hospital serdang 24.03.2015
@ no. Still x kaya lagi muahahahaaa. Boooo sgt.
@yup. Still struggling with my life. My new role.
sekarang tgh cuti berpantang selama 44 hari. Hari ni hari ke sepuluh. Dan saya decide untuk jadi blogger yg lebih aktif dan produktif. Mungkin boleh jadi ala ala mama blogger yg lain.
nikah 22 mac 2013
salah satu target da tercapai within 1 year. Alhamdulillah.
so sekarang tinggal hantar mama abah pegi haji. thats all i want in this life. nothing more than that. not a million dollar for me but for me to get married, haj for mama abah n to take a good care of my two babysis.
so here i am. 21 and a half. married to the man i loved. i'm blessed. bersyukur sgt sgt sgt tak tau nak cakap macamana.
there's always a stories behind every pictures.
no i didnt cry during nikah sebab nangis masa mak andam mekap.
pukul 8 start mekap. by the time pukul 9 something da settle da die tapuk tapuk bedak.
tiba tiba tertengok jam. tepat pukul 10. lagi sejam nak akad nikah. rasa takut gementar neves gemuruh sume bercampur baur. air mata menitis tanpa henti. mengalir macam tu ajee takde warning warning.
mak andam tu macam marah sbb abis mekap mahal die bazir tapi takkan la die nak tunjuk pulak kann.. die pujuk tanya kenapa nangis.. sbb masa tu nina ngan kak siti berdua je dlm bilik tak ade sesape n semua org rasanya tengah sibok bersiap cantikkan diri masing masing before majlis. terus cakap takut sume pastu kak siti cerita masa die kawin dulu macamana.. dengar je sambil try nak tahan air mata. lama jgak la dalam setengah jam macamtu.. pastu baru kak siti sambung mekap semula tepat jam 11pagi baru settle mekap. rasa nak tercabut pinggang duduk kat kerusi berjam jam mekap. janji ngan kadi pukul 11 start n rombongan lelaki pun on the way. terus sarung baju yg kotor trace manik pun x basuh selekeh sgt sgt n sarung tudung bawal chiffon beli RM15 ngan veil buat sendiri ala kadar. masa berlalu rasa cepat sgt kaki rasa tak jejak tanah.
Alhamdulillah sekali lafaz dan selamat bergelar isteri. asyik sengih sana sengih sini je pengantin lelaki ntah ape die seronok sgt pun tak tau la.
no, he didnt even get on his knees for me to marry him.
i'm easy like that. haha.
well, i only have my dad as the only man in my whole life before.
so sekarang ade dua orang lelaki penting dalam hidup.
i just want to be with this man for the rest of my life.
not just for a walk.
not for the night.
but for a lifetime.
and since i'm sooo tamak like that i just have have haveee to paksa him to marry me.
so here it is.
no cheesy proposal story.
haha.
100th blogpost
100th blogpost.
unfortunately ----- readers. haha. i'm obviously not famous and all. major haha.
unfortunately ----- readers. haha. i'm obviously not famous and all. major haha.
happy birthday nina
happy birthday nina
selamat hari ulang tahun kelahiran -.-'' ke 21.
yeahhhhh its not that cool.
you are now officially 21. not that being 21 is important.
you know the whole u r an adult now. you have to take charge of your own life. pay your bills. blahh blahh
( duhhhhhh like i'm one of the girly girly spoilt brat.)
i am in charge of my own life here. in fact i'm struggling to have a life'
i think'' i'm doing good right now.
i think..
but nina..
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you are not driving the 'cool' car or living in a studio apartment u've always wanted.
you are all alone not living the cool' life u dreamt.
you gained more weight that somehow lead to a chronic diseases of lower self esteem as a result from a seriously low metabolism rate.
you are not fat with cash.
you are not hot. you have zit pimple jerawat all over your face. you are uuugggllyy.
face it. you. are. fat. and ugly. with no money. and family and friends. on your birthday.
thats all sum up to you are a total loser.
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and below is the list of why your 16 year old self hate you soo much that she would literally kill you herself.
you are not in a foreign country.
remember 5 years ago you vow to yourself that you want to be the girl who travel abroad, the one who took risk and flipped chance treasure every inch of journey. but you never did. you never throw yourself out there. not even singapore. loser.
you are seriously on your down' wheel.
i mean it. look at yourself. you are not the sassy' is that what they call it nowadays? you know~ cute and sexy at the very same time kinda girl. for the record i used to be that' girl. you seriously need to lose weight. and your jeans's size. and you need to take more time for bath. or for yourself. you know~ to scrub your face every week and to put on facial mask. you're no longer up to beauty' stuff that often anymore. you are too busy that you start to neglect your body.
your body stop to grow vertically.
you shop at bundle.
still a cheapskate.
you never made it on the hot list.
you never been on a cruise.
still not good with babies. or kids. or young adult. whatever they called.
still not good with camera.
you didnt establish anything with your name on it. yet.
you suck at cooking. not even nasi lemak. pffttt.
still depend on public wifi.
still not good in relationship.
and.....
you are awayyyy from others.
family and friends. 7 hours away.
love~~~~ 7 hours away and less than an hour on the phone.
no facebook. no whatsapp. no twitter.
nothing. whats going on with you?
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~~~~~ cut the crap nina.
anyone above 21 and being perfectly independent would totally feel you so you dont have to feel bad about yourself.
so feel me now!
selamat hari ulang tahun kelahiran -.-'' ke 21.
yeahhhhh its not that cool.
you are now officially 21. not that being 21 is important.
you know the whole u r an adult now. you have to take charge of your own life. pay your bills. blahh blahh
( duhhhhhh like i'm one of the girly girly spoilt brat.)
i am in charge of my own life here. in fact i'm struggling to have a life'
i think'' i'm doing good right now.
i think..
but nina..
------------------------------------------------------------
you are not driving the 'cool' car or living in a studio apartment u've always wanted.
you are all alone not living the cool' life u dreamt.
you gained more weight that somehow lead to a chronic diseases of lower self esteem as a result from a seriously low metabolism rate.
you are not fat with cash.
you are not hot. you have zit pimple jerawat all over your face. you are uuugggllyy.
face it. you. are. fat. and ugly. with no money. and family and friends. on your birthday.
thats all sum up to you are a total loser.
---------------------------------------------------------
and below is the list of why your 16 year old self hate you soo much that she would literally kill you herself.
you are not in a foreign country.
remember 5 years ago you vow to yourself that you want to be the girl who travel abroad, the one who took risk and flipped chance treasure every inch of journey. but you never did. you never throw yourself out there. not even singapore. loser.
you are seriously on your down' wheel.
i mean it. look at yourself. you are not the sassy' is that what they call it nowadays? you know~ cute and sexy at the very same time kinda girl. for the record i used to be that' girl. you seriously need to lose weight. and your jeans's size. and you need to take more time for bath. or for yourself. you know~ to scrub your face every week and to put on facial mask. you're no longer up to beauty' stuff that often anymore. you are too busy that you start to neglect your body.
your body stop to grow vertically.
you shop at bundle.
still a cheapskate.
you never made it on the hot list.
you never been on a cruise.
still not good with babies. or kids. or young adult. whatever they called.
still not good with camera.
you didnt establish anything with your name on it. yet.
you suck at cooking. not even nasi lemak. pffttt.
still depend on public wifi.
still not good in relationship.
and.....
you are awayyyy from others.
family and friends. 7 hours away.
love~~~~ 7 hours away and less than an hour on the phone.
no facebook. no whatsapp. no twitter.
nothing. whats going on with you?
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~~~~~ cut the crap nina.
anyone above 21 and being perfectly independent would totally feel you so you dont have to feel bad about yourself.
so feel me now!
aiiyoo this guy
even if he's not there at my weakest moment
he sent me this motivational lyric to make sure i dont give up
(other than blabbing ya-da ya-da why i cannot give up )
Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out
Or looked down on
Just try your best, try everything you can
And don't you worry what they tell themselves
When you're away.
It's only in your head you feel left out
Or looked down on
Just try your best, try everything you can
And don't you worry what they tell themselves
When you're away.
It just takes some time, little girl in the middle of the ride
(over, and over)
Everything, everything will be just fine (over, and over)
Everything, everything it'll be alright (alright)
(over, and over)
Everything, everything will be just fine (over, and over)
Everything, everything it'll be alright (alright)
Hey, you know they're all the same
You know you're doing better on your own (on your own)
So don't buy in.
Live right now
Yeah, just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough
For someone else
You know you're doing better on your own (on your own)
So don't buy in.
Live right now
Yeah, just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough
For someone else
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the
ride (over, and over)
Everthing, everything it'll be just fine (over, and over)
Everything, everything it'll be alright (alright)
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the
ride (over, and over)
Everything, everything it'll be just fine (over, and over)
Everything, everything it'll be alright (alright)
ride (over, and over)
Everthing, everything it'll be just fine (over, and over)
Everything, everything it'll be alright (alright)
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the
ride (over, and over)
Everything, everything it'll be just fine (over, and over)
Everything, everything it'll be alright (alright)
Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out
Or looked down on
Just do your best, do everything you can.
And don't you worry what the bitter hearts, are gonna say
It's only in your head you feel left out
Or looked down on
Just do your best, do everything you can.
And don't you worry what the bitter hearts, are gonna say
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the
ride (over, and over)
Everything, everything it'll be just fine (over, and over)
Everything, everything it'll be alright (alright).
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the
ride (over, and over)
Everything, everything It'll be just fine (over, and over)
Everything, everything it'll be alright (alright)
ride (over, and over)
Everything, everything it'll be just fine (over, and over)
Everything, everything it'll be alright (alright).
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the
ride (over, and over)
Everything, everything It'll be just fine (over, and over)
Everything, everything it'll be alright (alright)
Tak payah Boston sgtla
kenapa lagi senang nak relate masalah kita dengan lagu? mungkin kah
1. suara penyanyi yang cam supportive gila cam shout ' i feel you bro '
2. slalu sgt rasa ' eh ehh cam tau je lagu ni tauu '
3. rasa cool yang amat bila kepala ada masalah tetapi masih mampu nak layan lagu lagu
atau mungkin..
sebenarnya hati kita lagi ringan nak nyanyikan lagu dari zikir?
#lessonlearnt #notetomyself
dengki mendengki
ini merupakan antara sebab musabab mengapa saya lebih suka memalsukan diri apabila orang bertanya itu ini.
I NEED TO STAY AS LOW AS POSSIBLE
how does it make u feel when there is random girl walking around with things that puzzle ur head thinkg how does she manage to have all that?
not happy? jealousy? simply because u dont think she deserve it.
bilamana rasa annoy with ED menandakan perasaan kurang senang akan timbul rasa dengki mendengki.
- macamana dapat tapak? mesti main kabel sebab tu dapat tapak
-macamana dapat modal? mesti mak bapak gila kaya ni
- ni bisnes sendiri ke alibaba? mesti ada yang tak kena pompuan ni kena siasat ni
tu semua yang bermain dalam fikiran kebanyakan org, aku tau, cuma segelintir yang betul betul berani tanya soalan secara berdepan.
tak apa. faham..
ni ha contoh dengki mendengki wayar lampuku dicantas oleh manusia tidak bertanggungjawab
I NEED TO STAY AS LOW AS POSSIBLE
how does it make u feel when there is random girl walking around with things that puzzle ur head thinkg how does she manage to have all that?
not happy? jealousy? simply because u dont think she deserve it.
bilamana rasa annoy with ED menandakan perasaan kurang senang akan timbul rasa dengki mendengki.
- macamana dapat tapak? mesti main kabel sebab tu dapat tapak
-macamana dapat modal? mesti mak bapak gila kaya ni
- ni bisnes sendiri ke alibaba? mesti ada yang tak kena pompuan ni kena siasat ni
tu semua yang bermain dalam fikiran kebanyakan org, aku tau, cuma segelintir yang betul betul berani tanya soalan secara berdepan.
tak apa. faham..
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